At this point of time , i feel like i need to disappear .
I need to run away from everything .
I kept saying this but i never really mean it .
This time i'm serious .
Everything is crashing down on me .
The people whom i thought would be there for me , were never really there .
It's just empty promises and useless talks .
Comforting words become a nuisance to my ears now .
I kept cursing in my heart .
And that , i was never that kind of person .
I've never hate anyone to the extend that i kept chanting hateful words in my mind .
But this time , everyone went too far .
They pushed me off my limits .
I had enough , but i endured .
But they continued bringing me down .
One after another .
One by one .
Slowly .
Right now i shall show you what i'm capable of .
I stayed , i tried making everyone happy .
I tried so hard to make things as normal as i can .
I tried so hard not to be awkward .
I tried so hard to stay strong .
I tried so hard not to show my tears .
I tried so hard to stay faithful and wait .
But some people just can't see how much i've tried .
They assume things and jump to conclusions .

I feel suffocated surrounded by hypocretes .
I don't want to deal with these people anymore .
Because they only hurt me even more .

I'll show you what selfish really means .
I'll show you what cheating really means .
I'll show you what empty promises really means .
And i fucking swear i'll show you what crying yourself to sleep , being guilty over everything and blaming yourself for everything , cursing yourself for thinking that you hurt others too much , really means .

If you can do it to me , trust me
I can do it way fucking better than you can .

I'll do it so much better than you , you'll be stunned with how much i'm capable of .

So long , have a good life :)